Sigh... what to say? I'm beginning to feel quite strongly that this very secretarial role in my new company is not working out fine for me!
It is really tough adjustment to "play secretary" to a female lady who is not easy to pleased.
Neither am I really a good secretarial material. In fact, I am starting to really HATE managing the calendars and conference calls and people enquiring with me on her availability. It may be easy shit for others, but I find it really such a stinking piece of shit. Making it worse is my boss - sigh... don't wanna elaborate, but I am not feeling so motivated today. In fact, right now, I am upset!!!
I want to go home. But .... I can't!!
The entire day (other than a nice lunch at Bakerzin with my 2 really nice colleagues who made my day) has been spent on calendars calendars calendars. OMG I wanna scream!!!!! I think I'd rather be swimming in a deep pool in another company managing all the operational HR stuff, which is also shit, but perhaps at a higher pay rate and getting the feel that I'm really doing work.
I didn't expect myself to feel this way, honestly.
I thought i wouldn't mind being an administrator again, but the Job description certainly made the job look attractive.
The Company's reputation, benefits and perks are some of the retaining factor too.
However, these are things I am very willing to forego if the job scope really don't work out for me.
I feel like a useless secretary, and absolutely no excellence nor confidence. Honestly, it is really not my forte to babysit someone else's calendar, appointments, etc.
Though boss clarified that she does not need me to monitor her appointments, but how do I detach myself from that?
People whom she's supposed to call and meet are calling me up to check if she's done, or when she's done can i please give a call to inform them so they can call in, ...
Worse thing is, I had to negotiate for a slot for her today at a certain time. And since she said she dont want reminders nor prompts, I tried not to do so. However, 15mins passed the appointment time and she has not yet made a move to the other office (10mins walk), and the other big shot's PA expects me to be monitoring and keeping tabs or updating the parties. GRRRRRRRR~!!!!! When I inform her that she'll be 30mins late, I got a tick-off from her that she does not need to be prompted and didn't she just clarified that the day before! I felt like such a chow kaypoh and a nuisance to her!! Geez!!! Yet, she does not understand that I need to keep other parties updated. When i try to explain that the other PA has stressed that the appointment should be kept in time, she told me that if the PA has a problem with that, just ask if the PA wants to have a word with her.
.... ....... ..... ..
I'm speechless.
Absolutely uncomfortable.
And I'm pissed off!!
Anyway, I called that PA to inform her that my boss will be late, and apologised about it.
SIGH... I HATE IT!!!
And then, there are other little unpleasantness of the day in other matters that really frustrates me.
Sigh... sigh... sigh....
I don't want to give up so easily, I don't want to run away from difficulties. I don't want another "short term" job that didn't work out.
Yet, how do I solve this situation?
I can't imagine when the new Director starts her project and the other new Director joins and starts his projects!! They will all look to me for support. During then, can I manage a very PA-dependent Boss and 2 other Directors?
Good question.
The salary rate is so not worth it.
Yes I'm bitching and moaning and whining. BMW!!!!
And now, back to work. *&^%$#@!!!
