Yes I've done it~!! I've sent in the letter last Wednesday, and tomorrow, 17 Dec 2008 will be my final day at the office.
With Jeff's help, I've managed to pack and send my stuff back home on Sunday... and there just remain a few more items we will shift home tonight.
Sent out a broadcast email to my colleagues last evening to inform them of my leaving. Received a few heartfelt responses that left me feeling touched.. sad... and encouraged. I guess I have under-estimated again, the level of favour people have towards me. A reminder, we often under-estimate how much we may mean to the people in our lives. Really gotta treasure and cherish it and not take things & people for granted.
I feel sad to have saddened the hearts of a few really nice folks, which I hope to continue keeping in contact. I've also had a few heartfelt chats with colleagues who would soon become friends, hehee..
I do feel the reluctance to leave, when I see how by staying on I can help.. and all the things that need to be done - who's gonna do them? But I do know clearly as well that I gotta move on.
I will miss the Levono R61 laptop I'm currently using at work, and the smiles of my colleagues, the fun folks from 8th floor I spend the most time with, and the pals I have from the 9th floor.
Well, I just can't help feeling sentimental.. :)
I'm now just gonna try to close as many chapters as I can for the unfinished tasks, and to prepare the handover matters and reminders.
Tomorrow... will be a good day.
And Thursday will be AWESOME!!!! yey!!!!
And Yes, Tweetie will then find time to blog and update on all the recent fun and moments shared with family & friends, and a very special someone... *wink*
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Undecisive
Have been pondering a whole lot on a decision regarding my job. Asking myself questions after questions, considering the consequences, talking to close pals and wise old people. However, I've still not come to any conclusion. My mind kept changing, and I have mixed feelings.
Lately, I have begun feeling endless frustrations, and am highly irriatable and coming to a certain breaking point, finding it hard to tolerate anymore. Well, this would have been the 3rd time I've burnout and reached breaking point since I started work here. It's coming to six months... and at this point I just don't think it will get any better for me in this role.
Am I making too big a deal out of the situations?
I just know I no longer look at things positively, nor I do feel positive. I tried to motivate myself, I read some self-help books too, but... hehehe.. somehow I am finding it hard to apply the principles. Or rather, the unwillingness grows.
It is no longer a joy, and neither is it fun. Neither do I feel I am making positive contributions. Where is the satisfaction that comes with a job well done? I had enough. Really. And I've been saying " I HAD ENOUGH!" more and more often.
So, when do I take the action?
I've set the deadline to make the decision by next week, and yet now, I am thinking of bringing it forward to even today. That feels too impulsive. But how can it be impulsive when I've been seriously considering it for almost a month?
Well, some people I talked to said.. just take a break and you'll be fine. However, I feel that after the break, I probably won't wanna return, LOL. After a refreshing shower, I wouldn't wanna wear back the sour smelling clothes if I can help it, or go straight back to some smelly hole.
Sigh... but really, I keep trying to remind myself : Things are only as bad as you choose to see it. If I choose to see things more positively, perhaps it will be bearable.
If I don't take work seriously, perhaps it is fine to be "lost" and not doing an excellent job.
If I don't really care about performance, perhaps it if fine if all my bosses are frustrated and unhappy with how I suck at my job and finds me incompetent.
But, I mind.
I derive satisfaction and motivation from a job well done, and need to feel that I am contributing.
I guess, I am guilty of being too self-critical and places too high an expectation on myself.
Oh dear.. so then what do i do??? What would be the right thing to do??
And how about finances?
Can I cope with the minimal savings?
Can I find something new and comparable?
Am I making a foolish decision?
Are things really that bad or is it just me?
I think, it is me.
And that is good enough reason, perhaps.
I really don't wanna be blaming every other damn thing in the world.
Oops, self-blame is not exactly healthy either, LOL!
Anyway, I have to decide what makes me happy.
There is definitely something good and beautiful here, but that is only about 30% of it. The rest of it - the remaining 70% - is what drives me crazy, enough to leave me fuming, frustrated and in anguish - frequently.
Yea yea.. I still think its me.
Yet, it is probably just a mismatch in culture and mismatch in job.
Everyone is cut out for different roles and have different preferences and style.
I just have to admit that it is not working out for me here.
Sigh.
I will still wait till next week, and take a few more days to think about it, I guess.
I have a feeling, a bad feeling that next week will again be chaotic. It might make it harder for me to make a decision. :(
I guess, I don't wanna spoil anyone's long weekend by triggering it today either. I will aim for mid week to break the news next week - provided I've made the final decision.
I'd be a happier person soon. I'm optimistic about that, at least. :)
I will (hopefully) go to the gym, go swim, go for walks - to get back in shape, lose some fats.
I will (hopefully) go for short holidays, go spa, go massage, go for medi & pedicure, go pamper myself.
I will (hopefully) clear up the clutter in my room, which for a long time I have had no time to give it any attention.
I will (hopefully) spend quality time with my love ones and close friends, and fulfill the promises I have given to catch up and get more involve with life.
I will (hopefully) take up some courses or go learn something new, of interest, pick up a new skill.
Then, go seek a new employer. Lesser pay, nevermind. Lower rank, nevermind.
As long as I can be happy.
Ok, daydreaming over.
And now, to get back to work. =_=
Lately, I have begun feeling endless frustrations, and am highly irriatable and coming to a certain breaking point, finding it hard to tolerate anymore. Well, this would have been the 3rd time I've burnout and reached breaking point since I started work here. It's coming to six months... and at this point I just don't think it will get any better for me in this role.
Am I making too big a deal out of the situations?
I just know I no longer look at things positively, nor I do feel positive. I tried to motivate myself, I read some self-help books too, but... hehehe.. somehow I am finding it hard to apply the principles. Or rather, the unwillingness grows.
It is no longer a joy, and neither is it fun. Neither do I feel I am making positive contributions. Where is the satisfaction that comes with a job well done? I had enough. Really. And I've been saying " I HAD ENOUGH!" more and more often.
So, when do I take the action?
I've set the deadline to make the decision by next week, and yet now, I am thinking of bringing it forward to even today. That feels too impulsive. But how can it be impulsive when I've been seriously considering it for almost a month?
Well, some people I talked to said.. just take a break and you'll be fine. However, I feel that after the break, I probably won't wanna return, LOL. After a refreshing shower, I wouldn't wanna wear back the sour smelling clothes if I can help it, or go straight back to some smelly hole.
Sigh... but really, I keep trying to remind myself : Things are only as bad as you choose to see it. If I choose to see things more positively, perhaps it will be bearable.
If I don't take work seriously, perhaps it is fine to be "lost" and not doing an excellent job.
If I don't really care about performance, perhaps it if fine if all my bosses are frustrated and unhappy with how I suck at my job and finds me incompetent.
But, I mind.
I derive satisfaction and motivation from a job well done, and need to feel that I am contributing.
I guess, I am guilty of being too self-critical and places too high an expectation on myself.
Oh dear.. so then what do i do??? What would be the right thing to do??
And how about finances?
Can I cope with the minimal savings?
Can I find something new and comparable?
Am I making a foolish decision?
Are things really that bad or is it just me?
I think, it is me.
And that is good enough reason, perhaps.
I really don't wanna be blaming every other damn thing in the world.
Oops, self-blame is not exactly healthy either, LOL!
Anyway, I have to decide what makes me happy.
There is definitely something good and beautiful here, but that is only about 30% of it. The rest of it - the remaining 70% - is what drives me crazy, enough to leave me fuming, frustrated and in anguish - frequently.
Yea yea.. I still think its me.
Yet, it is probably just a mismatch in culture and mismatch in job.
Everyone is cut out for different roles and have different preferences and style.
I just have to admit that it is not working out for me here.
Sigh.
I will still wait till next week, and take a few more days to think about it, I guess.
I have a feeling, a bad feeling that next week will again be chaotic. It might make it harder for me to make a decision. :(
I guess, I don't wanna spoil anyone's long weekend by triggering it today either. I will aim for mid week to break the news next week - provided I've made the final decision.
I'd be a happier person soon. I'm optimistic about that, at least. :)
I will (hopefully) go to the gym, go swim, go for walks - to get back in shape, lose some fats.
I will (hopefully) go for short holidays, go spa, go massage, go for medi & pedicure, go pamper myself.
I will (hopefully) clear up the clutter in my room, which for a long time I have had no time to give it any attention.
I will (hopefully) spend quality time with my love ones and close friends, and fulfill the promises I have given to catch up and get more involve with life.
I will (hopefully) take up some courses or go learn something new, of interest, pick up a new skill.
Then, go seek a new employer. Lesser pay, nevermind. Lower rank, nevermind.
As long as I can be happy.
Ok, daydreaming over.
And now, to get back to work. =_=
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Changes
CHANGES.
I feel, its time to call for MAJOR CHANGES in my life.
I need to do some critical evaluation and decide what to do.
Work has taken its toll on me.
I've neglected my family, my friends who are close to my heart, my personal life and health.
Time to do something about it. Really really do something about it.
Time to decide what matters, and what don't.
Time to move on and do what is right for me.
(=.=) .... sigh...
Am sick and on MC for 3 days since Monday.
MC = Medical Certificate and meant "Sick Leave" in Singapore, not "Menstrual Cycle" as asked by my foreign exboss once, when he was informed that an employee's having MC for the day. (I had a good laugh!!!!)
I'm on sick leave for a couple of reasons, mainly because I was bitten by some insects - suspected Sandflies - altogether about 12 red angry bites, on the feet and lower back. Don't know how it happened and where it happened. But during the weekend I paid a visit to the new Marina Barage, and was also at my ex-company's BBQ event held at Bayshore Park Condo. Took a walk and sat down somewhere for a chat, and possibly there may have been a pile of sand or soil infested with sandflies ???!!??? -_- sigh.. i'll never really know.
Anyway, the bites kept me up awake and scratching all night on Sunday, and somehow developed fever. Saw doctor on Monday and went home with a load of medication. Of which, was a bottle of Lice Lotion, to be applied all over the body after shower, and to let it dry on the skin naturally, and not to wash or bathe within the next 24 hours. hummmff... that's kinda disturbing, because it was suspected that I might have lice or some kinda skin parasite biting me. Worst, all beddings gotta be washed and if possible, family members should also be protected by having the lotion applied. Wah lauuuuuuuuuuuu~!!!!!!! Scary siah~!!!!
Doc also gave me Augmentin to treat the infections, as well to target the scalp acne breakouts possibly due to stress. Sigh.. my body's really breaking down due to burning out and stress. I was also given Atarax, for helping me to sleep in view of the itchings. I took one on monday night before sleeping - and thanks to it, I was fully drugged and woozy for the entire Tuesday. I could only wake and manage to make my way to the toilet to pee once in the morning, woke up again at noon when dad asked me about lunch - which I told him I was too giddy to move out of bed.. and finally, around 6pm, I was able to get out of bed, still feeling drugged and blur, but able to see straight and read words on screen.
Work.
Work. work. work.
Sigh.... this is one major problem.
On Monday night, I returned to office despite feeling unwell, to sort out a few matters and take my office laptop so I can work from home. Also, I have a conference all with Europe at 10pm which lasted an hour, and after that called one my CFO lady boss because more urgent data has been requested and needs to be submitted by the next afternoon (Tuesday)! FUCK!!!!!! I'm on sick leave, and I'm not well and how do I manage it????? Sigh..... I felt totally helpless, yet knows that I'm holding a managerial position and that is expected of me.
Stress kept me up a little till i popped the Atarax pill - Never did I expect that I can't see straight the next day, ho ho ho... and so, can't submit the data.
After the late breakfast+lunch at 6pm (mum woke me up and got me out to the coffeeshop to eat something), I logged on to work. No data has come in for me, and finally around 9pm, my CFO lady boss sent me 2 emails that didnt include the data, but told me to have to make sure i check this against that, and i need to get this or that data from another person. F%$#&!!!!!!! I was pissed off!!!!! I mean, please let me have the data so i can meet the deadline, there is no time to check this and check that!!!! Stop all the politics!!! ..... yet, the politics are necessary... to save jobs. Sigh.....
Anyway, i feel so lost. Lost in all these. And indeed, I feel discouraged again. I really DO NOT enjoy my job anymore. In fact, I feel that i am starting to resent it, and thats not good. I prefer things more straightforward and clear cut. And if being a manager means playing with all these ambiguity, then, I'd rather downgrade and take on something lighter. Fuck potential! Fuck all the "loss". It's really not worth it. I'm really unhappy!!!
To makes things worse..... today (Wednesday), I started having diarrhea~!!! (-_-)"
Started about 5am, together with more itches with the bites, and a worsen sinus infection. Called Doc and was told it could be due to side effects of the antibiotics. Oh well, if that's the case, then I'm not too worried. Called my lady boss again, and she didnt sound happy. Well, i dont blame her... yet, i don't feel good about the tone of her voice. I asked her again for the data because I've asked for extended deadline of 1 more day from Europe HQ and absolutely would need to send the report in. Again, instead of sending me the figures she wants me to do some analysis checks. This time, I felt really difficult... because I am really not feeling so well, I dont feel i am able to do analysis work. Somehow, she mumbled something about checking something herself and will call me back. Till now, i've not heard from her. I will call her soon, right after I pour this frustration out of my mind.
Talked to ET for a little while, and received some words of wisdom and affirmation from her. I really needed that.
Right now, I think... I will actively seek new employment.
I will be open to short term positions.
I will take on jobs that pay me a lower (much much lower) salary, but at least give me my work-life balance back.
And I should do so before Christmas.
My probation period is up on 30 Dec. Before confirmation is 1 week's notice. After confirmation will be 2 months' notice... it will be highly difficult to leave.
I dread that by doing so, I will add to the present crisis, and will be letting a few people down - especially The Dutch boss, who had believed in me. Sigh.. the CFO Lady boss has been kind as well, but I really have to "Shut Up, Move On". It's not their fault, I will take on the responsibility. I feel it is a job mismatch perhaps? Really, I feel that I am unable to cope with the stress that comes with a managerial position in this company. I am tired, I am feeling burnout, and I am not happy with my performance.
Time to tighten my belt, cut on expenses. I will be expecting a big paycut for my next job. But I think, I will be happier, and will get to work more decent hours. I look forward to being able to plan my time again and having some freedom without the burden that is constantly on my back - that something's still not done, and its not done because i have no fucking idea how to do it, and I'm too tired to think about it now. I want to leave that behind.
Enough time giving this job a try. The challenge has proven overwhelming, and I should be honest enough to admit defeat. The hardest part is letting go - of the "glamour", of the "personal office room", of the comfortable salary (nah, its never enough, I'd love to be paid more - but can I deliver and perform what's expected?). Also, I just hope the bosses don't try to hold me back again, but let me go. I think, in the present time and situation, they should make me redundant, LOL! Yes, it will be cheap because I'm too new in the company to be paid any severance benefit.
Ok, now, back to work. At least I've sort out some thoughts here.
Not sure how things will pan out again. I might just be too negative or pessimistic at the moment. But honestly, I really do think that I will not regret leaving this job, though it is stupid to do such a thing during an economic downturn and when most company has freezed their hiring, especially for General & Admin functional positions. Sigh.......
I should do the right thing for myself.
The company is good, just job does not fit me - I don't fit the job.
A funny car sign I found says :
"BORN TO PARTY -- FORCED TO WORK"
How true!!!!! hahahaa!!
I feel, its time to call for MAJOR CHANGES in my life.
I need to do some critical evaluation and decide what to do.
Work has taken its toll on me.
I've neglected my family, my friends who are close to my heart, my personal life and health.
Time to do something about it. Really really do something about it.
Time to decide what matters, and what don't.
Time to move on and do what is right for me.
(=.=) .... sigh...
Am sick and on MC for 3 days since Monday.
MC = Medical Certificate and meant "Sick Leave" in Singapore, not "Menstrual Cycle" as asked by my foreign exboss once, when he was informed that an employee's having MC for the day. (I had a good laugh!!!!)
I'm on sick leave for a couple of reasons, mainly because I was bitten by some insects - suspected Sandflies - altogether about 12 red angry bites, on the feet and lower back. Don't know how it happened and where it happened. But during the weekend I paid a visit to the new Marina Barage, and was also at my ex-company's BBQ event held at Bayshore Park Condo. Took a walk and sat down somewhere for a chat, and possibly there may have been a pile of sand or soil infested with sandflies ???!!??? -_- sigh.. i'll never really know.
Anyway, the bites kept me up awake and scratching all night on Sunday, and somehow developed fever. Saw doctor on Monday and went home with a load of medication. Of which, was a bottle of Lice Lotion, to be applied all over the body after shower, and to let it dry on the skin naturally, and not to wash or bathe within the next 24 hours. hummmff... that's kinda disturbing, because it was suspected that I might have lice or some kinda skin parasite biting me. Worst, all beddings gotta be washed and if possible, family members should also be protected by having the lotion applied. Wah lauuuuuuuuuuuu~!!!!!!! Scary siah~!!!!
Doc also gave me Augmentin to treat the infections, as well to target the scalp acne breakouts possibly due to stress. Sigh.. my body's really breaking down due to burning out and stress. I was also given Atarax, for helping me to sleep in view of the itchings. I took one on monday night before sleeping - and thanks to it, I was fully drugged and woozy for the entire Tuesday. I could only wake and manage to make my way to the toilet to pee once in the morning, woke up again at noon when dad asked me about lunch - which I told him I was too giddy to move out of bed.. and finally, around 6pm, I was able to get out of bed, still feeling drugged and blur, but able to see straight and read words on screen.
Work.
Work. work. work.
Sigh.... this is one major problem.
On Monday night, I returned to office despite feeling unwell, to sort out a few matters and take my office laptop so I can work from home. Also, I have a conference all with Europe at 10pm which lasted an hour, and after that called one my CFO lady boss because more urgent data has been requested and needs to be submitted by the next afternoon (Tuesday)! FUCK!!!!!! I'm on sick leave, and I'm not well and how do I manage it????? Sigh..... I felt totally helpless, yet knows that I'm holding a managerial position and that is expected of me.
Stress kept me up a little till i popped the Atarax pill - Never did I expect that I can't see straight the next day, ho ho ho... and so, can't submit the data.
After the late breakfast+lunch at 6pm (mum woke me up and got me out to the coffeeshop to eat something), I logged on to work. No data has come in for me, and finally around 9pm, my CFO lady boss sent me 2 emails that didnt include the data, but told me to have to make sure i check this against that, and i need to get this or that data from another person. F%$#&!!!!!!! I was pissed off!!!!! I mean, please let me have the data so i can meet the deadline, there is no time to check this and check that!!!! Stop all the politics!!! ..... yet, the politics are necessary... to save jobs. Sigh.....
Anyway, i feel so lost. Lost in all these. And indeed, I feel discouraged again. I really DO NOT enjoy my job anymore. In fact, I feel that i am starting to resent it, and thats not good. I prefer things more straightforward and clear cut. And if being a manager means playing with all these ambiguity, then, I'd rather downgrade and take on something lighter. Fuck potential! Fuck all the "loss". It's really not worth it. I'm really unhappy!!!
To makes things worse..... today (Wednesday), I started having diarrhea~!!! (-_-)"
Started about 5am, together with more itches with the bites, and a worsen sinus infection. Called Doc and was told it could be due to side effects of the antibiotics. Oh well, if that's the case, then I'm not too worried. Called my lady boss again, and she didnt sound happy. Well, i dont blame her... yet, i don't feel good about the tone of her voice. I asked her again for the data because I've asked for extended deadline of 1 more day from Europe HQ and absolutely would need to send the report in. Again, instead of sending me the figures she wants me to do some analysis checks. This time, I felt really difficult... because I am really not feeling so well, I dont feel i am able to do analysis work. Somehow, she mumbled something about checking something herself and will call me back. Till now, i've not heard from her. I will call her soon, right after I pour this frustration out of my mind.
Talked to ET for a little while, and received some words of wisdom and affirmation from her. I really needed that.
Right now, I think... I will actively seek new employment.
I will be open to short term positions.
I will take on jobs that pay me a lower (much much lower) salary, but at least give me my work-life balance back.
And I should do so before Christmas.
My probation period is up on 30 Dec. Before confirmation is 1 week's notice. After confirmation will be 2 months' notice... it will be highly difficult to leave.
I dread that by doing so, I will add to the present crisis, and will be letting a few people down - especially The Dutch boss, who had believed in me. Sigh.. the CFO Lady boss has been kind as well, but I really have to "Shut Up, Move On". It's not their fault, I will take on the responsibility. I feel it is a job mismatch perhaps? Really, I feel that I am unable to cope with the stress that comes with a managerial position in this company. I am tired, I am feeling burnout, and I am not happy with my performance.
Time to tighten my belt, cut on expenses. I will be expecting a big paycut for my next job. But I think, I will be happier, and will get to work more decent hours. I look forward to being able to plan my time again and having some freedom without the burden that is constantly on my back - that something's still not done, and its not done because i have no fucking idea how to do it, and I'm too tired to think about it now. I want to leave that behind.
Enough time giving this job a try. The challenge has proven overwhelming, and I should be honest enough to admit defeat. The hardest part is letting go - of the "glamour", of the "personal office room", of the comfortable salary (nah, its never enough, I'd love to be paid more - but can I deliver and perform what's expected?). Also, I just hope the bosses don't try to hold me back again, but let me go. I think, in the present time and situation, they should make me redundant, LOL! Yes, it will be cheap because I'm too new in the company to be paid any severance benefit.
Ok, now, back to work. At least I've sort out some thoughts here.
Not sure how things will pan out again. I might just be too negative or pessimistic at the moment. But honestly, I really do think that I will not regret leaving this job, though it is stupid to do such a thing during an economic downturn and when most company has freezed their hiring, especially for General & Admin functional positions. Sigh.......
I should do the right thing for myself.
The company is good, just job does not fit me - I don't fit the job.
A funny car sign I found says :
"BORN TO PARTY -- FORCED TO WORK"
How true!!!!! hahahaa!!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Reverse Bungy Ride with Rachel!
Hiak hiak hiak~! Was at Clark Quay lately for dinner and my friend asked me if I've tried the Reverse Bungy Ride. HELL YEAH~!!!!!! hahahahhaa.. OMG I will never forget it!
And this reminded me that I should post the video uploaded by Rachel in her blog (http://rachelsadventures.wordpress.com/) to share the experience I had.
I walked away with bruises (blue-black) on my neck and inner thighs due to the buckles and safety belt/harness, and muscle aches (yeah just look at how my legs flew)... but it sure was hellava great ride!
Would I try it again? Why not!!?? (=~.~=) but.. the bruises caused by the safety harness does discourage me a little......
Cheers
tweetie!
And this reminded me that I should post the video uploaded by Rachel in her blog (http://rachelsadventures.wordpress.com/) to share the experience I had.
I walked away with bruises (blue-black) on my neck and inner thighs due to the buckles and safety belt/harness, and muscle aches (yeah just look at how my legs flew)... but it sure was hellava great ride!
Would I try it again? Why not!!?? (=~.~=) but.. the bruises caused by the safety harness does discourage me a little......
Cheers
tweetie!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Lessons in life
I really like this very much... ~_~
tweetie
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LESSONS IN LIFE
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By Regina Brett, The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do .
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Read some good books. They cover every human emotion.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Bed of thorns & some roses
Sigh..
Working late again and taking a moment to crap a little online.
Glad there's facebook and msn to keep me sane sometimes, linking me to the outside world other than just work work work.
Another week has passed by and its been 2 weeks since I last posted. During which, there had been really fine moments of fun - especially with newly acquainted friends like Uncle Jeffie, who have been truly caring and supportive, encouraging, and making me laugh like hell. There's also Alex, my new "buddy" from the UK who contributes to interesting & heart-warming chat moments from time to time. Not forgetting my base & foundation of pals.. : TwinkleStar my bestest friend (*mmuacks~*), Michelle and Princess who are my "playmates & buddies", my sweet & cool cousin Serine who's currently staying with us, and many others (hehehhee.. sorry if your name is not mentioned. You can always leave a comment here saying "and Me me me me me!!!" LOL~!)
Wooo!~ Felt great again after counting my blessings, I'll recommend it to anyone that's feeling negative.
Still, back to the subject of worklife... it has certainly been a bed of thorns. Totally uncomfortable and pricking. True there are moments of fun, but reality is still as harsh and cruel. The job needs to get done.
This evening, I sat at my office desk, in front of my PC, and sobbed..
I needed to cry and let it out, because I totally feel stressed out and frustrated and helpless and exhausted and overwhelmed.
It has been one crisis after another that spell "URGENT, DO IT NOW" or "IT'S NEEDED SINCE YESTERDAY" for me.
I felt so sick and tired of late night working, with most part of the days being stuck in meetings and discussions and conversations that are necessary and important and long.
Things are happening at home that requires my attention, as well as attention required from people around me and for myself. I need time to take care of me too, I can't have my personal life fall apart! I am beginning to long for a more relaxed life with less things to worry about. No, i don't mean a problem-free life, because I am solutions oriented, i enjoy solving problems (for other people, LOL!) and only a dead man does not have problems. Yet, i wonder at the choices I have for the moment.
For now, I have - in a way - recommitted myself to the job. We are working out a system that we hope might work. But what adds to the stress and frustration, is that i have no time or energy to set that system up and running and to maintain it and remain discipline in keeping it in check. I'm still being seized left and right by urgent matters and meetings and all, and not in control of my schedule. The system is supposed to update the management of all the activities which are on my plate, and the stages for it to be done, and which action items are prioritised for when. However, since the day I walked out of the meeting last wednesday, it's been a week and I have not yet updated the worksheets. Because, there have been more meetings and more crisis.
I told my ex-boss that I miss those days where I report only to one boss and one company/business unit, and miss having a day that I can just feel I am on top of things and knows the status of each outstanding matter and what to do next. Being able to go home or plan activities for the evenings or weekends with some peace of mind. Right now I'm just fire fighting and not coping. I only go home when I'm too tired, yet worried sick that things are not yet done, calls not yet made, mails not yet replied, research not yet done, employee not yet spoken to, matters not yet followed-up, bosses not yet updated..... and meetings crowding up my daily 8hour workday - which only means staying behind to take care of matters.
Bosses are wondering what i have been doing -- that's not good. One of them said to me, maybe he should sit next to me for a day just to see what goes on. That's bloody insulting, but I hope he meant well. Ultimately, it clearly implies that he is bloody wondering what do I do for the whole day because in the end, he don't see me producing the work he has expected from me.
Even if I've been mucking around in Facebook, I couldn't have done it for the whole day, hahahahahahaa.... and as for msn, only a few chats here and there in between. In the evening, I'm just pure exhausted, and things just slow down. Ok, I'm whining so much.. blehhhhhh....
Really, today.. the thought of quitting is back on my mind.
However, it does seem that the job market is not too hot at the moment. Also, I feel responsible. Someone needs to solve these issues, and I am the only one to "help". Sigh..
Read something in the book S.U.M.O. tonight while waiting for dinner to be served:
SUMO WISDOM
-- "What you focus on, magnifies"
-- "Perhaps it is not the circumstances that needs to change, but your perspective of the circumstances
Indeed, like what a friend used to tell me : Things are only as bad as you choose to see it. Hmm... so.... Be positive!! Be Optimisitc!~ HANG ON!!!
Ok, enough said for tonight. Gotta get back to work.
For all my friends who have been supportive and concerned.. a heartfelt thank you.
Tweetie will be OK. I will pull through.. (hahaha.. I'm actually not very convinced, hahahahah!!!)
Oh yeah.. I forgot about the roses... the sunny side of life.. ^^
Well, I've managed to catch a few good movies past 2 weeks : Mamma Mia (again), Big Stan, Burn After Reading. Big Stan was hilarious!!!! I totally love Rob Sneider (ok pardon the bad spelling) and i find the humour brilliant! Burn After Reading is not too bad either.. kind of slow in the beginning but later on as the plot thickens it becomes kinda hilarious. I love Brad Pitt, he's so cute doing such a role and I find it really ticklish. George Cloony too, very different from the cool intelligent sexy smooth roles he played in most other movies. hehehe...
I've also tried working (bringing my laptop and work documents and parking at a table, near the electrical points) at West Coast MacDonalds over the past 2 weekends. It was lots of fun to work alongside with a friend, and terribly bad for my waistline because I kept feeding myself with food, but at least the place has air-con and gives me a relaxing alternative location other than the office to do my work. However, it was really tiring , because i "worked" overnight - thanks to the 24hours operation, hehehhehe..
Was also out for 2 "Prata Sessions" lately. First occasion with Princess & Uncle Jeffie, where we TCSS so much that we're in stitches with too much laughing. Second time was with Michelle and Uncle Jeffie, this time we took some pictures, LOL.. But now, I think those 2 occasions have gratified my Prata cravings for the next 3 years, hehee.. and I seriously need to go on diet. Too much fat and carbo ... I must have put on 3kgs since July. BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD!!!!!
Oh well, that made me frustrated too, because I would love to find time to go gym after work. Sigh...
Whatever it is, i must go on. Work still needs to be done tonight, and I just hope to be able to stay up and be active till 4am to get as much done as possible. Yes, I've had dinner, the Chicken Thai Kway Teow from the Cream Bistro downstairs. Quite nice! I think they probably know me as the lady who ate dinner there at least 3x per week. oh, Sad.
Alright, will update soon, whenever.. whatever! ^^
Working late again and taking a moment to crap a little online.
Glad there's facebook and msn to keep me sane sometimes, linking me to the outside world other than just work work work.
Another week has passed by and its been 2 weeks since I last posted. During which, there had been really fine moments of fun - especially with newly acquainted friends like Uncle Jeffie, who have been truly caring and supportive, encouraging, and making me laugh like hell. There's also Alex, my new "buddy" from the UK who contributes to interesting & heart-warming chat moments from time to time. Not forgetting my base & foundation of pals.. : TwinkleStar my bestest friend (*mmuacks~*), Michelle and Princess who are my "playmates & buddies", my sweet & cool cousin Serine who's currently staying with us, and many others (hehehhee.. sorry if your name is not mentioned. You can always leave a comment here saying "and Me me me me me!!!" LOL~!)
Wooo!~ Felt great again after counting my blessings, I'll recommend it to anyone that's feeling negative.
Still, back to the subject of worklife... it has certainly been a bed of thorns. Totally uncomfortable and pricking. True there are moments of fun, but reality is still as harsh and cruel. The job needs to get done.
This evening, I sat at my office desk, in front of my PC, and sobbed..
I needed to cry and let it out, because I totally feel stressed out and frustrated and helpless and exhausted and overwhelmed.
It has been one crisis after another that spell "URGENT, DO IT NOW" or "IT'S NEEDED SINCE YESTERDAY" for me.
I felt so sick and tired of late night working, with most part of the days being stuck in meetings and discussions and conversations that are necessary and important and long.
Things are happening at home that requires my attention, as well as attention required from people around me and for myself. I need time to take care of me too, I can't have my personal life fall apart! I am beginning to long for a more relaxed life with less things to worry about. No, i don't mean a problem-free life, because I am solutions oriented, i enjoy solving problems (for other people, LOL!) and only a dead man does not have problems. Yet, i wonder at the choices I have for the moment.
For now, I have - in a way - recommitted myself to the job. We are working out a system that we hope might work. But what adds to the stress and frustration, is that i have no time or energy to set that system up and running and to maintain it and remain discipline in keeping it in check. I'm still being seized left and right by urgent matters and meetings and all, and not in control of my schedule. The system is supposed to update the management of all the activities which are on my plate, and the stages for it to be done, and which action items are prioritised for when. However, since the day I walked out of the meeting last wednesday, it's been a week and I have not yet updated the worksheets. Because, there have been more meetings and more crisis.
I told my ex-boss that I miss those days where I report only to one boss and one company/business unit, and miss having a day that I can just feel I am on top of things and knows the status of each outstanding matter and what to do next. Being able to go home or plan activities for the evenings or weekends with some peace of mind. Right now I'm just fire fighting and not coping. I only go home when I'm too tired, yet worried sick that things are not yet done, calls not yet made, mails not yet replied, research not yet done, employee not yet spoken to, matters not yet followed-up, bosses not yet updated..... and meetings crowding up my daily 8hour workday - which only means staying behind to take care of matters.
Bosses are wondering what i have been doing -- that's not good. One of them said to me, maybe he should sit next to me for a day just to see what goes on. That's bloody insulting, but I hope he meant well. Ultimately, it clearly implies that he is bloody wondering what do I do for the whole day because in the end, he don't see me producing the work he has expected from me.
Even if I've been mucking around in Facebook, I couldn't have done it for the whole day, hahahahahahaa.... and as for msn, only a few chats here and there in between. In the evening, I'm just pure exhausted, and things just slow down. Ok, I'm whining so much.. blehhhhhh....
Really, today.. the thought of quitting is back on my mind.
However, it does seem that the job market is not too hot at the moment. Also, I feel responsible. Someone needs to solve these issues, and I am the only one to "help". Sigh..
Read something in the book S.U.M.O. tonight while waiting for dinner to be served:
SUMO WISDOM
-- "What you focus on, magnifies"
-- "Perhaps it is not the circumstances that needs to change, but your perspective of the circumstances
Indeed, like what a friend used to tell me : Things are only as bad as you choose to see it. Hmm... so.... Be positive!! Be Optimisitc!~ HANG ON!!!
Ok, enough said for tonight. Gotta get back to work.
For all my friends who have been supportive and concerned.. a heartfelt thank you.
Tweetie will be OK. I will pull through.. (hahaha.. I'm actually not very convinced, hahahahah!!!)
Oh yeah.. I forgot about the roses... the sunny side of life.. ^^
Well, I've managed to catch a few good movies past 2 weeks : Mamma Mia (again), Big Stan, Burn After Reading. Big Stan was hilarious!!!! I totally love Rob Sneider (ok pardon the bad spelling) and i find the humour brilliant! Burn After Reading is not too bad either.. kind of slow in the beginning but later on as the plot thickens it becomes kinda hilarious. I love Brad Pitt, he's so cute doing such a role and I find it really ticklish. George Cloony too, very different from the cool intelligent sexy smooth roles he played in most other movies. hehehe...
I've also tried working (bringing my laptop and work documents and parking at a table, near the electrical points) at West Coast MacDonalds over the past 2 weekends. It was lots of fun to work alongside with a friend, and terribly bad for my waistline because I kept feeding myself with food, but at least the place has air-con and gives me a relaxing alternative location other than the office to do my work. However, it was really tiring , because i "worked" overnight - thanks to the 24hours operation, hehehhehe..
Was also out for 2 "Prata Sessions" lately. First occasion with Princess & Uncle Jeffie, where we TCSS so much that we're in stitches with too much laughing. Second time was with Michelle and Uncle Jeffie, this time we took some pictures, LOL.. But now, I think those 2 occasions have gratified my Prata cravings for the next 3 years, hehee.. and I seriously need to go on diet. Too much fat and carbo ... I must have put on 3kgs since July. BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD!!!!!
Oh well, that made me frustrated too, because I would love to find time to go gym after work. Sigh...
Whatever it is, i must go on. Work still needs to be done tonight, and I just hope to be able to stay up and be active till 4am to get as much done as possible. Yes, I've had dinner, the Chicken Thai Kway Teow from the Cream Bistro downstairs. Quite nice! I think they probably know me as the lady who ate dinner there at least 3x per week. oh, Sad.
Alright, will update soon, whenever.. whatever! ^^
Friday, October 3, 2008
Tweetie in VOGUE!
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Woah, Tweetie made it to the cover page of VOGUE Magazine!!
Hiak hiak hiak!!
Got this picture mailed to me, compliments of Uncle Jeffie!
MAKE MY DAY TOTALLY!! hehehehehehe..~!!
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Yumm... Comfort Food for Tweetie
Okee.. *burp~*
Just ate yet another bowl of my recent favorite Katsudon from Cream Bistro at Pacific Plaza ground level. So far, it has not failed me in terms of flavour...
Each time I feel so stressed up or lousy, especially in the evening at the office pending a late night work hour.. I'll head down to "de-stress" with this wonderful warm bowl of Katsudon, with a request for extra eggs.
Katsudon (Cream Bistro)
They didn't use japanese rice.. just normal rice, but i think its the sauce - sweet enough and really tasty. The other really nice bowl of such dons I ate recently was at Vivocity while out with a friend after watching a Movie together. Damn... that was one memorable bowl of rice as well, the egg was perfect! Chicken pieces were tender and juicy.. Oooohhh and we were sharing. Yumm... hehehe... Woah feeling hungry again. Gotta try it again next time I return to Vivo. It's at the Shino-watever restaurant.. where they have grilled skewered meat. OK, nevermind, I'm never good at remembering names and such. And I'm toooo lazy right now to go do research for actual names.
Just ate yet another bowl of my recent favorite Katsudon from Cream Bistro at Pacific Plaza ground level. So far, it has not failed me in terms of flavour...
Each time I feel so stressed up or lousy, especially in the evening at the office pending a late night work hour.. I'll head down to "de-stress" with this wonderful warm bowl of Katsudon, with a request for extra eggs.
Katsudon (Cream Bistro)
They didn't use japanese rice.. just normal rice, but i think its the sauce - sweet enough and really tasty. The other really nice bowl of such dons I ate recently was at Vivocity while out with a friend after watching a Movie together. Damn... that was one memorable bowl of rice as well, the egg was perfect! Chicken pieces were tender and juicy.. Oooohhh and we were sharing. Yumm... hehehe... Woah feeling hungry again. Gotta try it again next time I return to Vivo. It's at the Shino-watever restaurant.. where they have grilled skewered meat. OK, nevermind, I'm never good at remembering names and such. And I'm toooo lazy right now to go do research for actual names.
Haha.. and during dinner, someone was appointed as my new bitching post. The brand new Tweetie BMW Garage. kekekekeke.. poor thing.
Oh yes, bought my favourite Rum & Raisin White Choc Nuts from Canele as well. That's the 1st thing I headed across to buy before returning to have dinner at Cream Bistro. Will have a piece of that bite of happiness. Heck, will have to worry about waistline later.. (oh.. bad.. bad.. bad.. hehehehe..)
Bought a bottle of Japanese Dessert Wine too. Will bring home to share with mum and Serine. They'll love it!!!!
Arrgghh~! Mad Monkey back on my head!
Arrgggghhh...~!!
So unhappy I is. I is so unhappys. -_-
Just back from a meeting.. guess what, the joke is.. HQ bosses disagreed that I can be fired by Mad Monkey and so, I'm back to serving all again. I wanna whine whine whine ....!!! *pout*
All that self talk about having courage to stand for myself. Hiaz... but still, good to have at least that backbone. Nevertheless, I still have a choice -- resign. But nay, not my style to do that.
So for now, my fate is once again in the hands of all. But the comforting thought is, all my other 4 bosses are very supportive and understanding, and they are telling me that it is impossible for me to know everything and do everything by myself, and definitely help is needed, and they know that it is not easy to be juggling so many things and priorities.
As much as I am uncomfortable with the way things will move forward, and the system that will be put in place to help manage this function, I will embrace it as a growing and learning process. But really, I am not whistling a happy tune liao. Feel kinda sian.. sian.. sian.. deflated.. hummfffrr..
Well, I gotta stop my BMW (Bitching, Moaning, Whining), and do my SUMO (Shut Up, Move On). And yes, I'm not a victim. I will overcome, I will survive!!! Meowrrr.. (tomorrow, I will roar louder, I promise). -.-"
Another day of back-to-back meetings and nothing getting done. Looks like it will be another late night at the office. I really hope this will change soon. Otherwise, one week's notice. hehehee.. Now that's a happy thought! ^^
*self hug*
Grrrr.. must not let this get me down. I is strong. I is OK!! I is hungry!!!! I must has Prata again!! *yummm.......*
When will work be fun again? Hmmm.. tomorrow, maybe! Hehehe.. gonna be out in the evening with the colleagues to celebrate 2 birthdays. ^^ happy thoughts, happy thoughts!!
And now, back to work.
So unhappy I is. I is so unhappys. -_-
Just back from a meeting.. guess what, the joke is.. HQ bosses disagreed that I can be fired by Mad Monkey and so, I'm back to serving all again. I wanna whine whine whine ....!!! *pout*
All that self talk about having courage to stand for myself. Hiaz... but still, good to have at least that backbone. Nevertheless, I still have a choice -- resign. But nay, not my style to do that.
So for now, my fate is once again in the hands of all. But the comforting thought is, all my other 4 bosses are very supportive and understanding, and they are telling me that it is impossible for me to know everything and do everything by myself, and definitely help is needed, and they know that it is not easy to be juggling so many things and priorities.
As much as I am uncomfortable with the way things will move forward, and the system that will be put in place to help manage this function, I will embrace it as a growing and learning process. But really, I am not whistling a happy tune liao. Feel kinda sian.. sian.. sian.. deflated.. hummfffrr..
Well, I gotta stop my BMW (Bitching, Moaning, Whining), and do my SUMO (Shut Up, Move On). And yes, I'm not a victim. I will overcome, I will survive!!! Meowrrr.. (tomorrow, I will roar louder, I promise). -.-"
Another day of back-to-back meetings and nothing getting done. Looks like it will be another late night at the office. I really hope this will change soon. Otherwise, one week's notice. hehehee.. Now that's a happy thought! ^^
*self hug*
Grrrr.. must not let this get me down. I is strong. I is OK!! I is hungry!!!! I must has Prata again!! *yummm.......*
When will work be fun again? Hmmm.. tomorrow, maybe! Hehehe.. gonna be out in the evening with the colleagues to celebrate 2 birthdays. ^^ happy thoughts, happy thoughts!!
And now, back to work.
Boundaries!!
Hmm... despite the "good news" that I've been fired by Mad Monkey, this morning I received an email stating another task or request from him. Hmm.... ??????
So in my puzzlement, I highlighted it to my 3 other bosses, and they've asked me to send them a formal email asking for clarification on who are my stakeholders and job focus areas. "In the Beginning", I have about 5 stakeholders, or bosses. I'll tag them as (1) Lady Boss, (2) Dutch Boss, (3) Mad Monkey, (4) Senior Boss, and (5) HQ Boss. Yes... that many people. This fulfilled the scriptures "Supervisors are many, but the Labourers are few". Poor Tweetie, hahahaha!!
So Senior Boss wrote back to me that it is clear that I nolonger will assist in any new files o rmatters for Mad Monkey's Business, but for "old files" (i.e. outstanding matters) to close it in a timely manner.
Mad Monkey then replied that those were objectives and tasks he have assigned to me since mid-July, not "new", but "outstanding".
What the....?
Anyway, I feel strongly that agreeing to it will be stupid, and will make no difference to me. I was ready to quit and one of the reasons was that I no longer wish to handle anymore matters required by Mad Monkey - because it is thankless, and at the end of the day, he rewards you by terrorising, threatening, humiliating and insulting you when he don't get his way. Yes, there will be an evident attitude problem on my part to refuse in attending to any outstanding matters communicated to me "since July", but I feel that if I wanna move on to the new set priorities and be able to cope, I should state the boundaries and I should at least attempt to make a stand. I hold my head up high in pushing back.
Hence I wrote back to Senior Boss, and state that I would highly prefer not to continue with matters pertaining to Mad Monkey's Business and gave a status of what was outstanding -- 2 main items only.
I dont know what the outcome will be, but I think, if at the end of the day, these items remained on my plate, I would still be happy that I voiced out my preference. Right now I only wonder, if I stand my ground in refusing to handle the job, what are the consequences? I was ready to quit, so what do I stand to lose? At the most, my reputation as an employee with a professional and positive attitude. Blehhhh... not worth keeping over a lousy Monkey Boss. Let me live with some dignity no matter how stupid it will seem to the world. Hummff!!! TMD, I not happy to do it, ok?? Kick my ass out and still want me kneeling down to finish the job? No way!! Out means out!! No need proper closure for this case.
I only hope my heart will continue have the courage to stand my ground. It is not easy. And I hate things to be political. However, I think, I need to do this for me. If no one is fighting for my benefit, I will be my only warrior. Rawrrr!!!
Tweetie, be bold, be strong, be brave, be courageous!!!
So in my puzzlement, I highlighted it to my 3 other bosses, and they've asked me to send them a formal email asking for clarification on who are my stakeholders and job focus areas. "In the Beginning", I have about 5 stakeholders, or bosses. I'll tag them as (1) Lady Boss, (2) Dutch Boss, (3) Mad Monkey, (4) Senior Boss, and (5) HQ Boss. Yes... that many people. This fulfilled the scriptures "Supervisors are many, but the Labourers are few". Poor Tweetie, hahahaha!!
So Senior Boss wrote back to me that it is clear that I nolonger will assist in any new files o rmatters for Mad Monkey's Business, but for "old files" (i.e. outstanding matters) to close it in a timely manner.
Mad Monkey then replied that those were objectives and tasks he have assigned to me since mid-July, not "new", but "outstanding".
What the....?
Anyway, I feel strongly that agreeing to it will be stupid, and will make no difference to me. I was ready to quit and one of the reasons was that I no longer wish to handle anymore matters required by Mad Monkey - because it is thankless, and at the end of the day, he rewards you by terrorising, threatening, humiliating and insulting you when he don't get his way. Yes, there will be an evident attitude problem on my part to refuse in attending to any outstanding matters communicated to me "since July", but I feel that if I wanna move on to the new set priorities and be able to cope, I should state the boundaries and I should at least attempt to make a stand. I hold my head up high in pushing back.
Hence I wrote back to Senior Boss, and state that I would highly prefer not to continue with matters pertaining to Mad Monkey's Business and gave a status of what was outstanding -- 2 main items only.
I dont know what the outcome will be, but I think, if at the end of the day, these items remained on my plate, I would still be happy that I voiced out my preference. Right now I only wonder, if I stand my ground in refusing to handle the job, what are the consequences? I was ready to quit, so what do I stand to lose? At the most, my reputation as an employee with a professional and positive attitude. Blehhhh... not worth keeping over a lousy Monkey Boss. Let me live with some dignity no matter how stupid it will seem to the world. Hummff!!! TMD, I not happy to do it, ok?? Kick my ass out and still want me kneeling down to finish the job? No way!! Out means out!! No need proper closure for this case.
I only hope my heart will continue have the courage to stand my ground. It is not easy. And I hate things to be political. However, I think, I need to do this for me. If no one is fighting for my benefit, I will be my only warrior. Rawrrr!!!
Tweetie, be bold, be strong, be brave, be courageous!!!
Monday, September 29, 2008
Fired by the Mad Monkey!
Haha.. guess what? I got the sack today! I'm fired by the Mad Monkey!!
Yihawwwwww~!!! hahaahahaahahaa~!!! OMG!!!!
THIS IS SUCH GREAT NEWS!!!!
Yes, hahaha!!!! Just what I was wishing for!!!! Can't believe it'll happen so soon!
I was still dreading every minute that Mad Monkey will come yelling at me or throwing his horrible remarks out at me and threatening again for putting me or someone else out of a job.
Shhhh.... sorry, can't say too much about it... will be a career limiting move if Mad Monkey found out, hehehe.. (just ask me personally ok? I'll explain!)
Anyways, I'm OK! Still got a job! An even better job!!! I'm so happy!!!
Well, the road ahead will be very challenging...
Had a meeting with my bosses this afternoon (the other 2 main shareholders). Lots of things still needs to be done, and all are still as important, but together - we will work out the way to make it successful. They definitely believe in my competency and my ability to work, with a few areas of improvements in keeping closer & frequent communication and update on priorities, progress and what's been done.
I definitely feel very very positive about this change! Oh my.... this is fantastic!!!!
Yeah!!!
Just wanna celebrate this moment!!!!
I'm Fired!!! And I don't even need to lift a finger to be fired!!!
COOL! What a wonderful Monday!!!!
I look forward to going to work tomorrow!
YES yes YES!!!!!!!!
Yihawwwwww~!!! hahaahahaahahaa~!!! OMG!!!!
THIS IS SUCH GREAT NEWS!!!!
Yes, hahaha!!!! Just what I was wishing for!!!! Can't believe it'll happen so soon!
I was still dreading every minute that Mad Monkey will come yelling at me or throwing his horrible remarks out at me and threatening again for putting me or someone else out of a job.
Shhhh.... sorry, can't say too much about it... will be a career limiting move if Mad Monkey found out, hehehe.. (just ask me personally ok? I'll explain!)
Anyways, I'm OK! Still got a job! An even better job!!! I'm so happy!!!
Well, the road ahead will be very challenging...
Had a meeting with my bosses this afternoon (the other 2 main shareholders). Lots of things still needs to be done, and all are still as important, but together - we will work out the way to make it successful. They definitely believe in my competency and my ability to work, with a few areas of improvements in keeping closer & frequent communication and update on priorities, progress and what's been done.
I definitely feel very very positive about this change! Oh my.... this is fantastic!!!!
Yeah!!!
Just wanna celebrate this moment!!!!
I'm Fired!!! And I don't even need to lift a finger to be fired!!!
COOL! What a wonderful Monday!!!!
I look forward to going to work tomorrow!
YES yes YES!!!!!!!!
Morning Walk!
Guess what?!? HAHA!!! I woke up this morning at 6.20am.. and went for a 30mins morning walk to start the day with!
This has been something I've been talking about doing and thinking about doing for a long time but never did made it! What to do... I'm just not a morning person! But, I'll try!! Always!!
Well.. honestly, it was a struggle to get out of bed. And the usual negotiations happened in the mind, to postpone it to tomorrow when I could have perhaps had a better night sleep. At 4.30am I was still somehow awake and unable to sink into Zzzz-land. But then, what the hell, just roll outta bed and see what's next!
So what's next was me, staggering to the toilet, splash water on face and freshen up.
Was changing into my T-shirt & shorts when mum knocked once a the door and opened the door! *What the....!!*
And she asked, "What's wrong with you???!!"
I blurred for a moment, and then instance annoyance rose within me. "Huh?! Nothing wrong ah!?" was my (ungrateful) reply.
So mum said, "But why did I smell alcohol all over the toilet? Did you go drinking and threw up or ????!!"
Hahahahahaa~!! That's funny!!! hahahahaah...
So I told mum .. "NO LAH!!! That's because I rinsed my mouth with Listerine lah!!!!!!!!!"
"Orhhhh.... cheyyyyy..." was her answer before she return to sleep.
-_-
Anyway, the next frustration was looking for my Nike Air in the dark. Not wanting to disturb anyone in their sleep, I tried searching around, but can't find them. Grrrrr.... Tweetie begin to feel annoyed again! Finally switched on the lights.. still can't find! Not in the balcony! Not at the door! Not in the shoe cabinets! Not in my bedroom's shoe boxes as well!!! WHERE!!!!!!!????!!!!! Rrrr...rrr..rr... I just can't figure out where my shoes could've gone to! Just then sweet Joan got up (she's our maid) and asked what I was looking for (sigh... i didnt wanna wake her up and now i've donnit!!). Told her, and guess what? She had washed it and its at the foot the balcony wall to dry. Grateful, I said thanks, and soon I'm on my way to the little "hill" near my place to have my morning walk.
Wow, felt so good! Right now I'm back to my bedroom... just cooling down and will have to get ready to go to work soon.
Things are gonna change. Yes, there will be changes!! AGAIN!!!!
And now, to go transfer stuff to my new handbag.
(Yes... I bought something really nice for myself yesterday after watching Mamma Mia with my sweet sis/cousin. I decided that I must pamper me!!! hehehehee... )
May everyone have a beautiful Monday!
Cheers~
This has been something I've been talking about doing and thinking about doing for a long time but never did made it! What to do... I'm just not a morning person! But, I'll try!! Always!!
Well.. honestly, it was a struggle to get out of bed. And the usual negotiations happened in the mind, to postpone it to tomorrow when I could have perhaps had a better night sleep. At 4.30am I was still somehow awake and unable to sink into Zzzz-land. But then, what the hell, just roll outta bed and see what's next!
So what's next was me, staggering to the toilet, splash water on face and freshen up.
Was changing into my T-shirt & shorts when mum knocked once a the door and opened the door! *What the....!!*
And she asked, "What's wrong with you???!!"
I blurred for a moment, and then instance annoyance rose within me. "Huh?! Nothing wrong ah!?" was my (ungrateful) reply.
So mum said, "But why did I smell alcohol all over the toilet? Did you go drinking and threw up or ????!!"
Hahahahahaa~!! That's funny!!! hahahahaah...
So I told mum .. "NO LAH!!! That's because I rinsed my mouth with Listerine lah!!!!!!!!!"
"Orhhhh.... cheyyyyy..." was her answer before she return to sleep.
-_-
Anyway, the next frustration was looking for my Nike Air in the dark. Not wanting to disturb anyone in their sleep, I tried searching around, but can't find them. Grrrrr.... Tweetie begin to feel annoyed again! Finally switched on the lights.. still can't find! Not in the balcony! Not at the door! Not in the shoe cabinets! Not in my bedroom's shoe boxes as well!!! WHERE!!!!!!!????!!!!! Rrrr...rrr..rr... I just can't figure out where my shoes could've gone to! Just then sweet Joan got up (she's our maid) and asked what I was looking for (sigh... i didnt wanna wake her up and now i've donnit!!). Told her, and guess what? She had washed it and its at the foot the balcony wall to dry. Grateful, I said thanks, and soon I'm on my way to the little "hill" near my place to have my morning walk.
Wow, felt so good! Right now I'm back to my bedroom... just cooling down and will have to get ready to go to work soon.
Things are gonna change. Yes, there will be changes!! AGAIN!!!!
And now, to go transfer stuff to my new handbag.
(Yes... I bought something really nice for myself yesterday after watching Mamma Mia with my sweet sis/cousin. I decided that I must pamper me!!! hehehehee... )
May everyone have a beautiful Monday!
Cheers~
A new tweetie's blog!
Yes!! Time for a new Tweetie's public blog!!
Felt so inspired after watching Mamma Mia today!
I think, time to let the old Tweetie blog go.. into the deep dark shadows.. hur-hur, and let there be a lighter side of memories journalled down.
For folks that are here for the first time, WELCOME to the world of Tweetie... or Tweetietouille!
You'll share my warped thoughts, perhaps even ramblings and bitchings... as well as fond memories of fun and meaningful moments in my life moving forward~...
Though i hope to put down everything here so I can look back on memory's lane and recalled what took place in my life... realistically, I know, I can be kinda lazy when I'm happy, and I'll be in hiding when I'm unhappy, and I'll be blogging elsewhere.... hehehehee... when i really really really need to let it all out!!!!! Hmmm.... contradictory...
Oh, but I will do my best. For ULTIMATELY, this blog is for ME. It's for me to express myself, and for me to keep a note of events and stuff. OK OK.. enough of self reminders!
Now... let's get moving!!!!!!
Felt so inspired after watching Mamma Mia today!
I think, time to let the old Tweetie blog go.. into the deep dark shadows.. hur-hur, and let there be a lighter side of memories journalled down.
For folks that are here for the first time, WELCOME to the world of Tweetie... or Tweetietouille!
You'll share my warped thoughts, perhaps even ramblings and bitchings... as well as fond memories of fun and meaningful moments in my life moving forward~...
Though i hope to put down everything here so I can look back on memory's lane and recalled what took place in my life... realistically, I know, I can be kinda lazy when I'm happy, and I'll be in hiding when I'm unhappy, and I'll be blogging elsewhere.... hehehehee... when i really really really need to let it all out!!!!! Hmmm.... contradictory...
Oh, but I will do my best. For ULTIMATELY, this blog is for ME. It's for me to express myself, and for me to keep a note of events and stuff. OK OK.. enough of self reminders!
Now... let's get moving!!!!!!
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